Twenty Seven Years

Yesterday was my twenty seventh birthday. For me, birthdays have always been a time of reflection. About the days behind and the years ahead, where I'm at and where I'd like to be. My twenties have been a consistent time of change. Sometimes sought after and sometimes unwelcome.

This past year has brought up a lot of fears I hadn't been aware of before. Fear of loss and the uncertain future, fear of change and the what ifs. We recently watched the Season 5 Finale of Grey's Anatomy and the closing monologue (of all places!) was surprisingly relevant and comforting to my current reflections.

We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future - as if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow.

But the future is always changing.

The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest dreams, but one thing is certain - when the future finally reveals itself, the future is never the way we imagined it.

As I begin another year of life, I hope to let the worrying of what may come fall away and instead lean into the scary and wild unknown. Because really, what other choice do I have?

- Kate